I am truly lucky that in my life I have never had something so extraordinary awful and tragic happen. (Knock on wood) I have gone through some hard emotional times as well as minor illnesses and accidents. So as I write about a tragedy in my life it almost feels lame as I know there are people out there who have been through so much worse. In any case, the sudden death of my dad 5 years ago has greatly effected me as a person in the recent past.
The death of our parents is, of course, a part of life. They are older and will most likely pass away before we do (they wouldn’t want it any other way). However, with my dad it was much too early. I’m the only child and my dad and I were close. Now it’s just my mom and I left in the family. That’s just not enough family. I worry about what happens when my mom is gone. I never did that before my dad died. They were both here and I didn’t worry about it. Now I worry about it all the time. Now I fall apart when I hear about someone else’s parent passing. Now I can’t talk to him when I think of something funny that I know would make him laugh. Now I can’t call him on the phone. Now my dad is gone and I am no longer the person I used to be.
I wish there was something I could say to make it better. But I'm just glad I visited here today.
ReplyDeleteI know just what you mean, lost my dad over 8 years ago. Still feel a little lost without him.
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ReplyDeleteI lost both my Dad's, my step and real dad, in the last two years. I am so sorry. I know five years is but a blink.The longing and the missing continue every day. I am lucky I have a brother to watch out for my mom or I would feel the same way about her being alone.
ReplyDeleteHang in there!
It takes some time(years sometimes) to get over a death in the family. I'm sure with support from your friends and extended family you will be able to move on and feel better.
ReplyDeleteI know how annoying words of comfort can get, despite the intention. Because really there are no words that can heal, only time. I agree with the above-commenter, surround yourself with friends and relatives (if there are any) because isolation would only make it more difficult for you.
ReplyDeleteI can feel your pain. The lost of parents is the gretest loss in out lives.
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That is how I feel...just me and my mom and if anything happens to her I would have to be put in a mental institution!
ReplyDeleteI can't even think about it. I don't know how either of my parents will do when the other is gone. NOt to mention me and my girls. UGH.
ReplyDeleteLucky for you, you have lots of great friends who have become like family. ;)
I am so sad you have experienced this pain Pumpkin. Losing my parents is one of my greatest fears. I weep when I think of it. I wish I had some wise words to share. I don't. Will pray for you.
ReplyDeleteHugs! I understand your thoughts, sadness and fears.
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