Thank you so much to those of you who have checked in periodically. That touches my heart.
I was really sad the first few weeks and had no desire to blog. I've gone to my blog a few times over the last month to get started again and then see my last post and fall into a teary tailspin all over again (in fact one is happening as I write this).
Grieving over an animal is not easy. I was constantly torn about being so sad. After a little time had passed, I felt so lame about it. She wasn't my husband or wife or mother or father or any other human being that would be devastating to lose. She was a dog. Are you really allowed to grieve hard over a dog? But I did/do miss her. Home was/is not the same, which has been very hard. I have always loved being at home, but I have been so anxious here over the last 6 weeks I can hardly stand it.
The crying fits and carrying a tissue box around the house are fewer and father between, which is good.
I'm starting to get my bearings back. I'm getting a new puppy (and maybe a dog) in July which is making me feel better. That decision caused me a lot of anxiety as well. Is it too soon? How can I replace her? A few people have even made me feel worse by saying they are surprised I am doing it so soon. But it has ultimately come down to the fact that I can't be at home much longer without another being here. I adopted this little cutie this past weekend and am going to bring her home when school is over.
Anyways, I hadn't planned on this pouring out of personal thoughts, but as I said I'm kind of teary tonight. Maybe this will get me going with the blogging again.